How Will You Be Remembered?
The other night I was lying in bed thinking about my day and how rough it had been. It was one of those trying days as a parent where you feel like you have screamed like a total banshee at your children all.day.long.
How Will You Be Remembered?
I felt horrible even though I told my boys how much I loved them at the end of the day and gave my kisses and hugs. Even after apologizing…I still felt
HORRIBLE as a parent.
I wanted to take back all the words that had come out of my mouth and make everything right. I didn’t want my kids to think I was a mother that barks orders at them all day. I didn’t want my kids to feel they couldn’t confide in me about their secrets or what’s going on in their life because I had placed this barrier up.
I want them to feel free to come to me. To feel welcome in their own home and never think that they don’t matter even if all I have done is bark orders to do this and do that.
So I’ve devised a plan within myself to try harder everyday to think about the words that come out of my mouth more consciously…(think before I act)
To show them more love than banshee woman behaviors…
To listen closer to their conversations…
While still showing them that I am the parent that runs the house. I am the one they still have to answer to and follow directions from. I am their mom…the one that is training them to be great men when they are fully grown and living on their own.
Banshee woman mode comes every month and anything can trigger it, but my eldest said that I’m the best mom she’ll ever have, and she reminds me almost everyday.
Oh that’s so sweet Eileen!
What a powerful post! What mom doesn’t think and wish there were times to take back words. But I know your kids will remember truly all the love you showered them with!
Thanks for sharing!
Awww, you’re too sweet Ellen! Thank you for your kind words!